By Molly Patrick
Aug 3, 2019
Once upon a time, there was a little girl who grew up under the New Mexico sky. She was a child of nature and she was filled with wonder and curiosity. She ran wild without shoes, only dirt under her feet. She tolerated clothes but preferred to go without. She knew every sound that came from the desert. The singing cicadas in the summer. The howling coyotes at night. The clap of thunder during the monsoon. She knew the tarantulas, centipedes, and snakes.
And she wasn’t afraid.
She knew the deer family that would visit in the evenings and the birds who started their song in the early mornings. She knew the encompassing heat of summer and the biting cold of winter. She knew the vulnerable thaw of spring and the armoring up of fall. She knew Orion’s Belt and the Milky Way and the Big Dipper. She knew the Pleiades, but always preferred to call it the Seven Sisters because this little girl had sisters whom she adored.
She knew the glorious smell of lilacs and rosemary. She knew the softness of weeping willows. She knew the sting of goat heads, the prick of prickly pears and the unfriendly slice of beargrass. She was full of life because it was all around her. From the time she woke up in the morning to the time she went to bed at night, she was in awe of the world around her and she knew she was part of it.
She felt safe. She felt love. She felt connected.
Just like coyotes can only be coyotes, and prickly pears can only be prickly pears, the little girl could only be the little girl. And this was supported by her world. She was loved and accepted for exactly who she was. Not only by her loving parents, but by all of life around her. By the land she grew up on. By the stars, planets and constellations in the night sky. By the horny toads and yuccas and cacti. By the rain and the sunshine. The dirt and the wind. This was a mutual and reciprocated love and acceptance. It was deep, unconditional and unwavering. She never felt alone, even when no one else was around.
As the little girl got older, life did what life tends to do to little girls as they get older. It pulled her out of the wondrous magic and into the harsh trenches. Her open heart slowly became closed and her curious mind became afraid. The invisible and all knowing trust, love, and acceptance that she had always had from simply being alive was eventually blocked by the protective shell she created, the one that was only ever meant to keep hurt away.
So she started looking for trust, love, and acceptance from the humans around her. From parents, siblings, and friends. From lovers and bosses. From teachers and bartenders. From co-workers and grocery store clerks. From bus drivers and partners. But no matter how hard she tried, or how close she got, no other human could ever deliver that deep rooted and all encompassing trust, love and acceptance that was so naturally, effortlessly and freely given to her by the desert of her childhood.
So she stopped searching.
She let everyone in her life off the hook, and she started the work of digging herself out of the trenches and opening back up to the magic. After many years of removing the protective gear, it became clear that the trust, love, and acceptance that she was seeking from other people was already inside of her.
It was gifted to her the moment she was born.
And if ever in doubt, all she has to do is…
look up at the night sky.
Feel the wind kiss her body.
Sit in the sunshine.
Listen to the birds sing their song.
Feel the earth beneath her bare feet.
Close her eyes and connect with that invisible and all knowing force.
The one that she used to connect with so naturally and freely when she was a little girl under the New Mexico sky.
She is accepted and loved simply by being alive. All she has to do is be herself and she is supported. Maybe not by other humans all the time, but that doesn’t matter. It is not the job of other humans to make her feel better. No human can do that for very long anyway. She has something much more powerful on her side.
She has life itself.
- 2 tablespoons lemon juice
- 2 tablespoons coconut aminos
- 1 tablespoon tahini (or sunflower butter)
- 1 tablespoon apple cider vinegar
- 1 teaspoon 100% pure maple syrup
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 3 cups grated carrots (no need to peel / 300 g)
- 1/3 cup raisins (50 g)
- 1/2 tablespoon poppy seeds
- In a medium-size mixing bowl, add the lemon juice, coconut aminos, tahini (or sunflower butter), apple cider vinegar, maple syrup and salt. Whisk until completely smooth.
- Add the carrots, raisins and poppy seeds and toss together until everything is evenly coated with the dressing. Eat just like this.
Wishing you a happy week. May it be filled with connecting with your own light.